An Assertion..Life ends..

Tonight...Crack of doom

life has come to halt

of all senses consumed

it was a heavy assault...

Thunderbolts..life ending

shook the mortality

death;fast ascending

unconscious fatality..

Psyche..closed down

spiritlessness in air

vast ocean;and i drown

not a soul cares..

Pain..intruding the layers

bloodline polluted;

insanity declared

living disputed...

An Assertion of yours ..enough

and my annihilation;

cant stand tough

life defeating situation..

 

Dark Winter..

Winter sets in yet again..

cold nights have always been;

a part of my life..a heavy contribution

don't know what i sinned..why this retribution..

this onset though..i thanked god supreme 

i have someone..for whom love is extreme

but winter has to be dark

leaving behind lucid marks

shivery i am..daunted

buried in snow..left unwanted

a touch is all required

soul would melt..life transpired

would plead your love to take charge

all satanic spirits would discharge..

all i have is you this winter..black

don't give up on me..don't fall back..

Detached Attachment..

Wish I had the power to forget it all

and move on with my life..slowly crawl..

but powerless..am attached to umpteen

hurting them...collecting their hurts..its been;

long ,long time,iv seemed to forget

myself,my dreams,my life at best

don't want to be alone,but yet 

want some relief..no regrets..

should i cut myself,or cut off all cords

iv been guilt always..show their records..

love has the power to heal and hurt

iv been hurt and its overt..

but that doesn't mean i don't want to be loved..

then why always am shoved off..

so figuring it out..speculating 

i want a change and am slowly changing...

dependent...shouldn't be..rightful abatement

Need to practice..Detached Attachment.. 

Seeking Solace In Myself..

Tired,trying..and understanding

its useless making myself understand to them

because that way am highly demanding 

uncaring,uninvolved..am condemned..

 

Their lives..highly affected by me

a lot of afflictions..they say

not trying to infer and see

"my role defied and i underplay"..

At fault..almost since i was born

hard to live with..pain i extend.. 

so what they do..is remove this thorn

on me they can never depend..

My unhinges..oh they are besides the point

and i feel am nothing..a defaulter..precisely

so shed me off..because i only disappoint.. 

and they  always behaved nicely..

Damn me..and my problems;just

be happy and don't face

am still on the solitary path,n i must

essentially seek in myself,solace