Happiness For You..Death For Me..

Bleeding on the deathbed

holding words unsaid..

pain penetrating

life is cheating..

Once begged god to give me death

he listened;and only now am short of breath..

last thoughts..smothering my head

justice given alas;soon I'd be dead..

i hurt either ways;with me,without me

i cause sadness;how well i can see..

now i know..am a grime soul

enough of proofs you've already told..

i cause you pain;even when am dying

i loved you i thought;more than life,implying

but your wounds don't seem to fill up

and to my wounds ill soon succumb..

you don't need to beg me to love you

u could never see;that is what all i do

but its hard to see you this way

am sure;after this you'll be okay

i promise not to cause more aching

you would know but i was not faking..

because this life of mine

is on fast decline..

i wanted you more than anyone 

but you were right;nothing can be undone..

before i go;i want to tell you 

my love couldn't have ever been so true..

i failed somehow;

death for me now..

I'd silently expire

happiness you'd reacquire..

You Are Hurt..

I wont hurt you anymore
even if it means turning myself sore..
your pains will subdue am sure
now that am taking a detour..
even if it takes putting myself to death
now you wont be short of breath,
and I'd compensate with each of mine
would give all the air and each drop of blood line..
It will relieve you,of that am certain
would mutely draw my life's curtain..
till the time i can survive
I'd pray that you merrily thrive..
because after that,I am sure
your life would be wholly secure..
i think you don't need me anymore
and that's fair,because every time your heart i tore..
i loved you and i failed to show
and so i should better go..
Because you are hurt..damage is done
on the mouth of gun i should be the one..
just know that i loved you more than my living
and i wish no more to live by your misgivings
Bid me farewell,my dear
for hurting you,I'd myself tear;
my heart
because you are hurt..

I'd Burn Myself..

They all want to throw me away,

and vindicated they are..

after all its me who always betray,

and painfully earn a scar..

They are dissatisfied..disturbed

i affect their lives so severely.. 

my right of living should be curbed,

and i should be killed clearly..

I cant make them glad

hurt is all i pass on..

no more will you, be sad,

when silently I'd be gone..

I have promised myself,

would burn myself instead..

let the flame douse itself,

and i would be the person you never had..

Unhappiness is all i am about..

And now i just await the end

things to close down on me..

arduous it is for living to mend

and the future is inane i can foresee..

With inflictions..marking my presence

how long i can live to witness..

so hoping for my happy evanescence

because pain i cause cant ever be less.. 

With each night comes a day

my atrocious actions fail to cease..

i should be left to decay

curbing my barbarities to increase..

Restricting air in my lungs

wanting blood to ooze out..

i should have been killed young

because unhappiness is all i am about..

The Demon Of Life..

Frenzied mist sets in

ceasing the light within..

unable to steer my path

crossing demon's wrath..

in a second,down the throat

destiny it was,god wrote..

unending pain,end was far

marking presence with each scar..

dilapidation with each breath

but still nowhere nearing death..

the demon,savoring each blood drop

neither i tried to battle nor did he stop..

sucking out,the terminal puff of air

breathless,despondent of any repair..

marked each pigment with knife

the vehement demon of life..

Debarred..

Debarred..restricted

for this life..misfitted..

with some things..come surprises

i come with only pain..painful crises..

with me comes shame

they think,for them,tears never came..

Keeping inside,closing my life

to see them happy,but they are always at strife..

I am questioned,my sensivity too

Afterall,I reall can't,some things,undo..

And so am left to perish away..life charred

from the love of thiers,am Debarred..